9 Years ago today, I woke up in Oslo, Norway, ready to begin a training that would change the course of my entire life.
At the time, I had given up trying to make my marriage work (I had already tried everything). Instead, I was trying to figure out how to find myself again. I was so lost in the years of giving away my voice for my then-husband's comfort, trying everything to please him and be a "good wife." I barely knew who I was anymore, but I knew that I wanted be a better mom than I was being and I wanted to feel happy again. I wanted to feel at peace with where I was in my life and to stop wishing for it to be different.
The day I woke up in Oslo, divorce still wasn't an option in my mind. My family was my priority, or so I thought.
Over the course of 4 long, intense days of deep inner work with the love and accountability of Janet Attwood herself (creator of The Passion Test) and her amazing trainers, my heart broke free. My soul started singing again. My stuck mindset began to shift and I tapped into my dreams of what I wanted for my life again. My life. Not my husband's. Mine. 🫶 There I was.
My #1 Passion became "I am living authentically from my heart and soul." I learned the formula to make that a reality and the secret that guaranteed it and I began to live it. No more lying to myself. No more Stepford Wife to make sure my husband didn't get mad at me for being me. No more. I had felt the spark of my authentic self once again, for the first time in so many years, and I was never going to let it fade out again. I still haven't. 💖
Another passion, though I can't recall where it fell in my top 5, was "I am experiencing a happy, harmonious family life." I wasn't considering divorce yet, but I also wasn't making it about my husband or my marriage, specifically. One of my markers for that passion was that I "speak with loving kindness to my children," and that I hear them laughing and playing respectfully together all of the time. They were little at the time - just 8, 7, and 4.
➡️Fast forward to last night - I'm happily divorced and even more happily partnered with an incredible man who loves me for exactly who I am. He's still in Florida, where we recently took an amazing vacation together. My kids and I were having dinner together in our beautiful home. I felt my heart growing in my chest, bursting with love and gratitude as I watched them interacting, talking, laughing together, with respect. With kindness. My 3 teenagers do not fight. My kids haven't fought with each other for years. Once I began modeling calm, respectful, loving tones and behaviors, my kids reflected it, too. We have a beautifully happy and harmonious family life today (with the realistic challenges and struggles that teens dealing with anxiety, gender identity, and puberty along with the good stuff).
⚡️Every single year, sometimes twice, I make a new list of passions and continually align my life with what matters the most to me, now. Every single year, my life gets more and more beautiful from the inside out. Every single year, I am more *me* than ever and I love and respect the woman that I am. The beautiful parts, the raw parts, the clumsy parts, the fun parts... all of me. I love all of me and all of my life because I embrace it all and continually choose in favor of my ideal life, loving where I'm at and growing and moving toward what more I want.
🙏Every single year, I take dozens of people through the Passion Test and help them design a life of intention, consciously creating what they want to experience in their lives. Every year, I get to watch those clients soar - transforming their relationships (especially with themselves) and their entire experience from one they thought they "had to deal with" into one that is fulfilling and joyful.
If you're tired, so tired like I was, of faking it, The Passion Test might be your pathway home to yourself. If you feel like you just have to "get through" another day, like I did, I promise you there is more in life for you. Are you ready to explore what's possible for you? Message me. Let's chat. If it's possible for me, it's possible for you. You're worthy and deserving of a life you love, now. 💗
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